Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Solarox's LiveJournal:

Monday, December 10th, 2007
12:25 am	How the hell did this come together all at once? I am happy. Susan = win and awesome, as does having money! YAY! All I need now is to do well in Uni, and that should be possible, touch wood. Kim, get your anti-missile defence system ready! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Panzer ag - Battlefield (Comment on this)
Friday, November 30th, 2007
8:55 pm	Sigh As if I didn't have enough on my plate right now (Pun unintended) I'm now being bombarded with accusations from my ex (the one who isn't a cheating whore, and I still care about) that I dumped her for no reason, or something like that. I remember something completely different, though admittedly it was my fault as I was obviously doing something wrong for her to feel like I didn't love her, but we mutually decided that being friends would be better. Damn I don't need this right now, not when I was looking forward to new things. Current Mood: Demoralised Current Music: Grendel (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 25th, 2007
11:10 am	ARGHHH! Note to self, try leaving time for work in between job seeking. Its bloody Sunday already and I have a formal report to do in 24 hours. Oh well, Grab a can of Strongbow (lamentably the only cider in a can thats really worth drinking and freely available) to get into working mood and lets go. Should be easy once I get started, but that cheating bitch whore stole my fucking level 2 core text book. What a harridan. To the online science journals!!! Sick to the death of voicing my usual complaints, so I won't. I just hope my friends' problems begin to ease. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Ajattara (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 14th, 2007
8:24 pm	YayEeek! Damn I am bloody lucky to have some kick ass friends. You know who you are. Food is in the cupboard and plans of repayment are in the head. On the other hand, I need more confidence, damnit. Current Mood: Happy, but annoyed at myself. Current Music: Amduscia, again (Comment on this)
Monday, November 12th, 2007
11:21 pm	4 days This is a strange feeling. A bizarre complacency with regards to the face that I have at most 4 days worth of food left. Sure I'm gonna be mad on the 5th day, but until then I figure I may as well just wander aimlessly on as I have been, since there's shit all I can do. Besides the money situation things are looking crazy, I'm flattered that a friend chose to contact me during a pretty damn massive breakdown, though I'm not sure how much help I was able to offer I do try my best. I'd like to say I can move into my new house on Wednesday, but without money for rent I remain firmly seated in my sinking dinghy in the middle of a somewhat fast flowing, flooded Shit Creek. Yay for being me! I almost want another group of people to attempt to mug me, just so I can laugh in their faces and offer them my card, Hell I might as well give them the PIN number too, see how far it gets them. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Graveworm (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 11th, 2007
12:46 am	I'm sorry In light of all things recently to happen to me I'm not feeling all that great. Over the entire summer I've been bottling up just about every emotion under the fucking sun. Previous experience has taught me that this isn't wise, but its either that or be constantly pissed off and snappy, and I kinda like having friends. So anyway, imagine I'm an unopened bottle of coke, (coke here represents all the shit I'm bottling up) kicking me down a flight of stairs. Pressure build up is kinda getting a bit beyond my tolerance levels. I'm sorry if I do snap at some of you, I'm just having a pretty rough time. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Amduscia (Comment on this)
Friday, November 9th, 2007
4:12 pm	It's been a while. Wow,  3 and a half years down the line since I've looked on here. Thats good going. In this time I've been engaged, grown 8 inches of beard, cheated on, (again) and had a few broken bones, but its all good. Downside now is I'm almost in a position to admit my feelings for someone, but can't for fear of loosing the friendship. Bloody complications. But I'm happy* anyway. Well, I will be happy when this current spate of the student loans people fucking me up is over, which should be soon. I might even write on here again. Who knows. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 27th, 2004
9:22 pm	What the fuck just happened? havent written here in a while, it is a combination of being too pyschotic and not been here. Rob H (kill the bastard!) has been spreadding more shit than a farmer, summat about me fucking some bitch from ullswater behind my girlfriends back. only ppl i know in ullswater are blokes, and i'm not interested in that. so now i'm single and robs being measured up for a coffin! the word ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!1 comes to mind. if he's in skool tommorra i might go on a rampage, which might be fun. Also i'm getting hints of summat to do with laura, but no one will tell me what it is. i hate that, the inconsiderate bastards which tell me that there is something, which they do (i dont beleive them!) but then dont tell me what it is! Listening to Send Me An Angel by Deadstar Assembly. I feel dead inside, as usual. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 17th, 2004
10:12 pm	why? hmm, pub with amy, started ok. then somehow Gemma Lloyd came into it, me and her used to be good friends, but recently i havent heard from her, she is having a scan for cancer and i am really worried about her. amy said something but didnt finish it, which makes me wonder how gemma felt for me, but i'm being a presumptious git again! why me? (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 13th, 2004
12:04 am	hmm well i succesfully nippled up my life yesterday! i split sam and laura up cos sam thinks that laura would be blind enough to go with me behind his back, not in a writing mood now, more an inflicting self pain mood. write more tommora if i can be arsed/survive (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
10:09 pm	today and yesterday tonight has been crap! highlight of the day was seeing annabel at school, which was nice! just talking online tonight, bore! Yesterday was great in parts, at dinner time, me willl, jayme and amy went to the pub. it was my night so now i am skint, but just being there chillin with willl and jayme was worth it! talked about politicts, religion and all sorts of stuff, willl is my mind personified, which is amusing! then we bought some guinnes and went to near jayme's house. willl and jayme needed a fiver, so i ran to the co-op to get one, on the way back a random group of gypsies decided to kick the crap outa me. i managed to hobble to where willl and the rest were, then nearly passed out and had to be taken into jayme's house draped over willl. watched Battle Royale whilst half concious, then began to recover slightly, which was good! All things considered an ok night! (Comment on this)
Monday, June 7th, 2004
10:06 pm	monday Bloody Gypo's! Not a bad day today, woke up having missed my alarm, but got into school, saw Belly, who it turns out has had her phone confiscated rather than is ignoring me, which is good! went down town with rick in the morning, on the way back up i saw georgina coming from school, so i went back to keirans house to talk to her. went back to school and saw annabel again. then just pissed about in school. Went down town again after school, this time to the pub with Laura, while Sam was in the doctors, had two pints, then went round for a short while, saw two random year 10's who i know, and they took me to the place where they do circus training, they were trying to do some stunt, and were amazed at the fact that i could almost do it. will go back to "clown college" next monday. was fun! I was happy today, Laura and Sam appear to be on the mend, after all the damage i accidentaly did! (Comment on this)